I look at this picture of you, and all the cliche's come rolling back to my mind ...
a flood of emotions, tumbling and tussling in my head ...
loneliness throws its silent shadow on the vastness that is life ...
while friendship seems to hang back .. trying to throw me a line
fear takes over ... dancing to the shadows tune
and sarcasm becomes a shield that keeps gnawing at my heels ...
as time keeps throwing its blows at me .. the shield turns into a sword .. but facing the wrong way .. it keeps pushing me around .. till slowly fate has its way and all i can feel is the cold steel of my emotions piercing the flesh of my mind .. tearing apart what once was ... baring my madness to this world ....................................... and all that i ask ... is that i get to keep you happy ...
to wish to be your man is too much ... i fear that asking for that boon will only push me further away .... better to sit and silently watch you live than be thrown far away not knowing what became of you ..........................................................................................................

life is such a fucking bitch ................... but even then you know deep inside .. its worth it :)