Utopia...........my obsession with it goes back too far to remember. I admit that to an extent I am a Schizophrenic. I fear it the most and also welcome it the most. It sets me free and also binds me in chains.
How can that be, both at once?
I ask the same questions to myself.
Let me explain, at least try.
We all have dreams and passions. These dreams sometimes define our lives. They are the frame about which we build our lives. We dream of certain achievements and the glory and or happiness they will bring us. Some of us like me go a step further. We actually live in that world .Our utopia. And when we see reality we are scared, for our dreamland was far too good. Too satisfying to our mentalities, too close to perfection. And then we become slaves to ourselves. We obsess. Start to hate the world even more. And we are right in a way. It's like being woken rudely from a peaceful sleep.
We all cherish that state of bliss where we live in that parallel universe. There we are free. Free to do anything. But we are slowly becoming slaves to all of this. These dreams of Utopia are just like Drugs and Narcotics for the mind. They induce a false sense of happiness, they call on us to obey them, surrender ourselves to them. They provide us with a sense of well being .A LIE.
What a paradox. Here I am claiming to know their reality when I myself am a slave to this illusion. My utopia has me as a big time author, blessed with the love of the girl I love. I lie in her lap and stare at the stars as we plan our future, sitting on a grassy knoll as the wind blows through her hair.
But reality will never be this way. I am fated to a life that I do not wish to accept. My love will never be mine, she is destined for someone else. For years my heart has bled at the sight of her. But I rejoice in her happiness (or at least seem to think so, is it another illusion).
We all need to find out our illusions. Sometimes we make ourselves accept a situation and then say it was meant to be this way.
WAS IT?
7 comments:
hmmmm...Well illusions are important. The most important thing according to me.Because we serve a purpose,if not we should. And that should be our dreams. I am also in my own illusions. But I accept reality and move on. At the end of the day , you can't have it all your way !! Isn't it ???
This is one of the best works that i've ever come across. it almost made me cry and even then-whenever i read ur blogs-i stop at this one-each time-read it all over again because it touches me-my soul-my heart. but just thing-come what may-never stop writing-its ur lifeline, ur blood, its U. and at times-livin in dreams does bring along some sweet smiles and unknown happiness too.
sexy yaar...how do you manage get these feelings in writing?
u rock dude....now i know how u calm down from all the chaos...keep writing and never stop...and no matter whatever happens...just remember...i m your frnd and will always be...
-NAWAB
he he PG..writing is my life....it lets me say here things ill never say otherwise.....
and i have faith in you my pal..you aint one of my best pals for nothin
and replying to anshul...agree with you man..illusions define our dreams..they point at our tomorrow...they show the lacking parts of out today....they just....reflect our life
nikki...writing is me....i only write when i...get the feel..the urge...he he....and ive learnt..ki there is no way that im gonna stop writing
I feel life is a game....
We might like it sometimes, sometimes we might not. Sometimes we cheat in it, at others we act like a saint. Sometimes we sit back and dream and also work on them sometimes to get them into reality. If we get them done, we keep yelling about it day and night and keep basking in glory of that victory, how feeble it might have been. While at other times when we don't have things going our way, we keep blaming time, scenario and every person or thing we could think of..... but then all i feel its essential for us to remember is that even if we don't get our dreams accomplished, we should keep working on them. The flame of desire should be bright.... reminds me of the tagline i saw it in TV once... " The only difference between dreams and accomplishments is purely desire"
So people,be a sport in the game of life...
and DREAM ON!!!!
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